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Monday, August 14, 2006

I'm just another suburban heartache, blending to waste away
Shuhui; Omg how can I say it here dear! Oh I just remembered I forgot to reply your text last night. Hm I don't know when, you let me know kay. _ doesn't like her anymore!!
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Stainless heart that never speaks,
Reads like a story never sold.
730am in the morning & I just came back from school. I didn't sleep the previous night. Talked to ___ then called _. Talked till 5plus. :/ Had a badbadbad headache, so decided to just skip school. Got to school, left my Mboards there in the Artroom. Saw Yj out at the school gate, flagged a cab & got home. Called _ again & that silly's sleeping (: Heh will hear her again later when she wakes up! :D My head is still spinning but better. :/ I'll go catch some sleep after I get home from the clinic. Gonna wait till _ calls. [:

So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
Since I have the time now, I shall type out whatever I wanted to say but didn't have the time/ mood to.

Li Sheng Jie's Ni Na Me Ai Ta
为什么不说心里话
wei she me bu suo xin li hua
你深爱他
ni shen ai ta
这是每个人都知道啊
zhe shi mei ge ren tou zhi dao ah
你那么爱他为什么不把她留下
ni na me as ta wei she me bu ba ta liu xia
是不是你有深爱的两个他
shi bu shi ni you shen ai de liang ge ta

是. :(
Shi.

I feel selfish doing that to you. I wonder where is my heart, who does it belong to. I keep wanting to go to you but when I do, I feel selfish. I can't let you have me & you hold on to us while I keep thinking what do I really want. What if one day I realised the one who held onto the keys to my heart weren't you, it's her? I don't wanna hurt you all over again, I'm scared of doing that. I've stabbed your heart so many times that I get so afraid. I'm not wanting the best of both worlds but I'm just so undecisive.

Didn't I just told you a few hours ago when we were on the phone that I want myself to be the undecisive one? Shit, I didn't know I am already the undecisive one. ):

Li Sheng Jie's Ni Men Yao Kuai Le
你们要快乐要天长地久你们没有错
ni men yao kuai le yao tian chang di jiu ni men mei you cuo
爱是自由走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
ai shi zi you zou chu zhe shan men hou zhi shao we hai you liao kou
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手你们不幸福
ni men yao kuai le yao jing jing qian shou ni men bu xing fu
我会难过成全最爱的人不是为了看着他寂寞
wo hui nan guo cheng quan cui ai de ren bu shi wei le kan zhe ta ji mo

You don't marry someone you can live with. You marry the person who you cannot live without. Remember you used to say this to me? How we used to talk about the future, how we could both us being together till the end. But these are all the past & they're things that we both can't bring back to life again. I don't ask for much, I just want you & her to be happy. Seriously, honestly, deep-down-from-my-~~broken~~-heart-ly.

Don't, don't let this be another mistake ok?
If loving you with all my heart's a crime, then I'm guilty.

From the moment you left,
I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
I typed a passage of what I wanna tell that someone but deleted them still. I think I'll put it up in LJ. I doubt ___ will like it if I put it up here. I don't want her to blah me again. It's considered tough for me to have us come this far after so much had happened.

Well, I'm still the undecisive one. Fuckkkk. :/

I'm so tired, so is _. She called & I accompanied her to work while she accompanied me to the polyclinic, on the phone. Hahah (: I kept laughing, screaming & whining, thanks to her. -.- Oh I must eat my medicine & go to sleep after finishing this entry! My eyes are shutting man. Got to the clinic, waited for around 45 minutes & got to Compass. Got my lunch & went home. Fucking tired. :/ Ate & I'm here online.

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